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Ever since i was little i always appreciated the same sex… I admire beautiful things. woman to me are beautiful and i feel attracted to them (some more than others).. i have experimented (very little) and enjoyed it. I once believed that i fell in love with a girl. I was attracted to her beyond any other same sex attraction i ever had. She was simply a friend and nothing more. I wonder at times, I do not want to lable myself at all.. such as “Bi” or “experimental” but am curious to know how normal these feeling are. If I had the chance i think I would fulling experience being with a girl.. only if i felt a strong connection but i will never fully commit to a relationship. I am in love and with a man. I love men and they are my top/only choice. but still feel turned on at the site of a beautiful woman, so much that my fantasy will be to get closer?? Any input?
Also i think this was influenced with how little girls are raised… we change infront of each other, share clothes… at on epoint (being very little) I even showered/bubble baths with friends for fun at sleep overs??